Wed. Nov. 9, 2016
A day I will not easily forget. I went to bed surprised and uncertain of who would win the American presidential election and found myself waking up in a nightmare.
My heart is broken. Pain, shock, disbelief, sadness, confusion, anger – are but only some ways to describe how I feel. I didn’t go on FB earlier today because I felt vulnerable and didn’t want to engage in a debate about sexism, racism, Islamphobia, xenophobia. Why?
America elected the most divisive candidate in recent history – Donald J. Trump.
Throughout the day, different conversations with friends were had.
A few comments:
“I’m really scared, I woke up scared”, solemnly said by a professional, corporate-stockbroker – tie-wearing, 6’6 Black man.
“I’m feeling forlorn,” said an MBA graduate, mother of two, Black woman and one of my closest friends.
Her 19-year-old daughter, crying at various times throughout the day. It’s sad that this beautiful young woman, yet to fully experience life and the world understands the ramifications of a Trump presidency.
His platform was based on and fueled by vile bigotry, something that would not have surprised me 20 years ago but today I feel like I was punched in the stomach. And although as a woman of colour I know that the “isms” are still alive and well, we were at the stage where actually admitting such things publicly would cause an embarrassment and forced people to keep their opinions to themselves therefore stopping them from poisoning the environment and encouraging hate. Trump has set us back.
My initial thought over Trump’s rise in this political fiasco was that it was a backlash for having a Black president for not only one but two terms. Two terms filled with blocks to President Obama from the Republicans not because of his policies but because of his race. He has actually been one of the most successful presidents in history, but you would never think that with the comment, “Obama is the worst President in history” repeated by those who have no legitimate source, but a sentence filled with double meaning. The double meaning translation for those who may not be versed in double speak – he’s the worst president in history because he is Black. Of course there are people who authentically do not believe he was a good president, but they generally don’t categorize him as the worst, they will speak specifically to a policy they disagree with. Through the constant blocks , he handled himself with grace, pride and class. “When they go low, we go high”. Trump the antithesis to such character.
Make America great white again.
I was stumped by the election of a man, by a party that extols family values and dragged Clinton over the coals for emails. To elect a man thrice married and cheating on each wife to the next, and in his recent recording it’s evident that he still fools around. I have no problem with someone who has married more than once, or care about what goes on in someone’s personal life/relationships but the Republicans have always made that an issue , a standard to make or break a candidate.
He hasn’t paid taxes, but the lowly individual cowers in their beds if the IRS calls. He laughs at them.
He is caught on tape speaking about how he assaults women and is yet to apologize for his behavior. Let that sink in.
He lacks integrity.
He has no political experience.
No moral compass – extreme right always uses religion and morals as arguments. Trump has none. He is a proven liar, an opportunist, a cheater and has used bankruptcy as a tool to not pay business associates. How does one reconcile his behavior with the morals?
Hillary has decades of public service, she is smart, she has shown that she has the temperament (and thick skin) to be a president. Trump is not a worthy adversary for her on any level. That is how sexist America is. I cannot understand any reason a woman would have to vote for Trump.
I don’t think when Trump decided to run for the presidency that he took it seriously. It fell in line with his attention seeking, personality – attention by any means necessary. And so I imagine him today hiding in his bathroom head in hand, afraid, saying, “What the fuck am I going to do now? This is real”.
I want to know how many Americans actually voted. These numbers are approximate only and the latest at this time.
46.9% did not vote
25.6% voted for Clinton
25.5% voted for Trump
Clinton won the popular vote. She won.
Black women who voted, over 90% supported Clinton. Is it because we are the recipients/victims of both racist and sexist beliefs and behavior? Is it because we see a woman, strong, having endured a husband’s fidelity publicly, and countless attacks but remains committed to seeing a better America regardless of the bullies? She is a woman that has fought for the rights of children and families. Is it because we have had to fight for the same and be strong, that we relate to her strength?
Why is it that white women would vote for Trump, an outright misogynist, whose only interest in a woman is if she is fuckable, by his standards. And many of those who did vote for him, he would not want to grab their “pussy” and would publicly tell them how they didn’t meet his standard- and not in such diplomatic words. The stats also say the majority of them were not college educated the majority of that demographic voted for Hillary.
The relief that came from the stats for me were that almost half of the American population did not vote. I’m not sure if these stats are the norm for these elections. The idea of not voting is a foreign concept to me , it is a right and privilege I do not take lightly as I know the lives that were fought and lost to have the option not to mention other examples around the world today . Anyhow, that’s for another discussion. As I was saying the relief that I get from these numbers is that the majority of White Americans are not actually racists, that you do not have to look at every White American sideways waiting for the racist gene to pounce and attack you whether verbally, physically or passively. Don’t get me wrong, of course not all Whites are racist, sexist or xenophobic, however, Trump was elected because racism and sexism were not deal breakers for many Whites and some White women – who voted and didn’t vote and the few, African American, Latinos and Jews who voted for him. If the ramifications do not affect you directly, likely you are not going to think about it because you do not have to worry about your child or loved one – every time they leave your home – being attacked for their race, ethnicity, religion or sexual orientation.
I finally made it on to FB. A few have said they are grateful for living in Canada. However, it’s naive to think that we are not affected by the USA. I’ve heard politicians in the past agree with the racist campaigns across the border. As I contemplate this I see an article about Kellie Leitch a woman running for the conservative leadership in Canada, who is excited about the Trump campaign – she thinks it’s good for Canada.
I decided I would write her a letter because my say, my vote has power here. Yes, my one vote, which I take seriously. I will let you know if she responds.
And then another about a judge in Hamilton, Ontario who wore the Trump cap to court the following day celebrating his victory. Grateful for the response from others calling for his resignation. I also hope they review the cases he has presided over to see if there are any discrepancies on his sentencing practices and unfair bias. Click the following to read article. http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/hamilton/trump-judge-apology-1.3852064
And why would I suggest this, because I was also sent this link about prison stock prices surging after a Trump win. https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2016-11-09/private-prison-stocks-are-surging-after-trump-s-win
In case the above point is lost on you, it has been proven in the USA, that the sentencing and incarceration rates are not the same for Black, Whites and Latinos for the same crimes. As well that a couple of those in the judicial system and corrections have been arrested for making money from inmates who were sent to prison. By the way this isn’t an unproven conspiracy theory – it is fact.
I’m at the gym and CNN is on the TV, I cannot stomach the images of Trump. I look everywhere else.
I take a break and try not to think about politics.
I take a break
Still in disbelief.
Property owners want to rename the Trump tower in Toronto. I’m comforted to know that the owners /residents disagree with him and do not want to show any support for the Trump brand that they go so far as to create a petition. On another note the Trump Tower in Toronto has been a “disaster” since breaking ground in 2007 with investors losing money.
My disbelief has turned to anger.
A few weeks have passed. I’ve gone from disbelief to anger. I’ve seen more videos and social media statuses filled with hatred and violence towards, Latinos, Muslims, and African Americans. On the other side, I’m also feeling some comfort as I see people rallying against Trump, mostly Caucasians, and one lonely Texan cowboy-hat-wearing Justin Normand, standing outside of a Mosque in Texas with a sign telling Muslims to stand strong! People like him, give me hope in humanity and confirms not all white-cowboy-hat wearers are complicit in this.
I’m also happy to see the mayor of Clay County, Beverly Whaling and Clay County Development Corporation’s then director Pamela Ramsey Taylor fired or forced to resign. Pamela Taylor made a statement on Facebook about the first lady Michelle Obama looking like an ape in heels and the mayor liked it also adding her two cents.
Click the following link to read the article https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2016/nov/15/michelle-obama-ape-in-heels-post-west-virginia-worker-fired
“David Barber, deputy director of the Shelby County Corrections Center in Memphis for the past 17 years, resigned after controversial FB posts. According to the Washington Post, one featured a picture of President Obama next to a man in a Ku Klux Klan mask and said “The KKK is more American than the illegal president.”
Another post, according to the Memphis Flyer, is about the Obama family claiming they had been discriminated against because they’re black. According to the newspaper, Barber commented, “Arrest convict hang and confiscate all assets.” Washington Post
Click to see the article https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/post-nation/wp/2016/11/16/a-tenn-jail-official-called-the-kkk-more-american-than-obama-now-hes-out-of-a-job/?utm_term=.0921406f0d97
These people felt comfortable posting because Trump elect has made it ok to say the unacceptable and show their racist beliefs. Glad they showed themselves and action was taken to get rid of them. So in a good way they are weeding themselves out of some very significant powerful positions that affect peoples livelihoods…and lives, it’s scary to think this man was the deputy director of corrections. There should be an investigation into his work actions as it relates to inmates and treatment.
Trump has already tried to control the media! Albeit, he seems more concerned with his physical appearance than what he stands for. Smells of Putin. Speaking of Putin, they say that the communication between Trump and Putin was a lot more than he admitted too while campaigning. Of course, we all know that. There are so many obvious wrongs here, but he is in power…is this how Hitler became the leader of the Nazi party?
A known alt-right white nationalist, is Trump’s chosen chief white house strategist and senior counselor.
Trump reprimands the actor in the Broadway play Hamilton for speaking to Pence about what he hopes he will do when he becomes Vice President. Trump does nothing of the same to stop the white supremacists from their acts. Oh sorry, he did once on 60 minutes – he speaks to the camera saying stop. Where are his rants on Twitter telling them that their behaviour is reprehensible. In fact, where is his tweet praising Justin Normand for his act of unity?
Trump is saying he is going to take himself out of the running of his business because of the conflict of interest. I can’t believe that anyone would believe that he will honestly do that. His administration is shaping up to be a racist, shady enterprise.
Trump with the help of Bannon are responsible for the normalization of hate in 2016. It’s ok to be a misogynist, a racist, anti-Semitic and sexist. You see the white nation believers , coming out strong. I recently read an article that they want an equivalent to the NAACP, because if Blacks can have it then Whites should too. The level of stupidity is at an all time high, their lack of knowledge and understanding , the ignorance is so profound. The NAACP was born out of the survival of Black people from White racists, and discrimination. Black power was born out of the need of the empowerment of a race of people who were degraded and beaten, not just physically, but mentally and psychologically. Black power has never been about beating down a race of people to oppression and submission. White power is – whether by fear (lynching), beating or segregation (separate and unequal). Ignorance is not bliss. Pick up a history book. Your stupid is showing.
Melania has decided she is going to wait to move into the White House. It’s said the cost is a million dollars per day. Hmmm, I wonder what FOX News is saying about this? I’m not sure because I cannot stomach the media outlet for the alt-right. What are the Trump followers thinking about this? If it were Michelle Obama all hell would break loose. The amount of money per day is likely more than the majority of them make in a life time. A public expense – their taxes are paying for this privilege, but what do they care, their vote was really about making America White again – not honesty, integrity or family values.
However my theory on Melania not moving to the White House , is that she cannot stand the man she married and truly wants a divorce. The campaign trail probably showed his lack of character and the probability of his cheating and therefore has brought another level of contempt towards him in her eyes.
The anger is finally dissipating. I’m finding ways to manage it and place my energy productively and effectively. I have downloaded the app, Boycott Trump. It lists the companies that are affiliated or support him. I will actively avoid those as far as my spending and support. I will write letters. I will make calls. Most of all I will not let the hate of ignorant people consume my thoughts or steal my joy.